✿ Lola's Dreamscape ✿

First off let me say THANK YOU, THANK YOU, AND THANK YOU for coming into my life, my world, and changing me/it for the better.

In my head I thought I knew about the/my "ideal" guy. I was so enamored with those tall, dark, and handsome types that I never would have thought you'd catch my eye or my heart. I cannot tell you the exact moment my feelings began to change. I cannot tell you the day, week, month that I began to see you as more than my friend. All I can say is that one ordinary day when you smiled at me, it became an extra-ordinary moment for me. Maybe these feelings were always lingering inside of me and I just suppressed them. I know for a long time I tried to deny what everyone else seemed to already know.

That I like(d) you, It cannot be love, but it is greater than any silly infatuation. Lets just call this a strong like. You see it is not that I fell for you looks, because you happen to be blonde, blue eyed, and not even 6ft tall. Nope, I fell for your kindness. I never realized just how amazing kindness can be. I fell for your sincerity, your generosity, and most of all I fell for your personality. You make me believe in the greatness of human beings. Whenever I see you I feel happier, lighter, and all I want to do is to be the earth that you orbit. I told you once that your like the sun to me, and you brighten up my life. There is nothing more true than that statement.

Even if I never tell you how I feel, even if we stay just friend or drift apart. I will remember you as the person that made me realize what love could be like. What really matters in a person, because you are handsome, but your inside beauty far outweighs your outside one. I don't know when/if my heart will stop feeling this way towards you, because sometimes it hurts not being more than your good friend. There is so much I want to share with you. I want to be close to you, like a second skin. I want to laugh with you, sit with you, anything and anywhere I want it to be you. I know your not perfect, but your imperfections make you real. Your not a prince, but you could be mine.

I am not going to try and fight my heart, I am not going to try and deny how I feel for you, I'll just go with the flow and enjoy being in your presence. You opened my heart, and my eyes to the possibilities. You are someone I will always remember, no matter where life takes me or you. I wish that I could just say all of this to you in person, but I am pretty sure your heart doesn't feel the same way. You'd never guess that you had this affect on me. Since you know your not my "ideal type" but I would give up all of that just to be the one you hold in your arms. I don't need types I just need/want you.

If we don't end up together, that doesn't matter, I know that I will continue to remember what you taught me, even though you have no clue that I learned something from you. A person is beautiful because of the kindness they bring to others. You are a truly beautiful person, and I feel inspired by you. You deserve every happiness, every love, every triumph. I never thought I would meet someone so genuine, thank you for being in my life.

I am grateful that the heavens brought us together, and I am grateful that you never ask me to be what I am not. When you look at me, I see myself reflected in your eyes, shining so brightly in those baby blues. You are a treasure to this world, my world, and I will always remember you in my heart and memories.

I can say now that I am glad that I met you, like(d) you, and learned from you. My heart is indebted to yours. Thank you for showing me that there are people in this world worth loving/liking/wanting.