✿ Lola's Dreamscape ✿

I closed the blinds
Turned off the lights
Pulled back the covers

Laid against my pillow
I fell asleep thinking of you
Slipping into dreams of you

I woke up this morning
Remembering memories of us
Wondering if you ever do the same

I want to reach out and pull you close
Tell you everything I never had the courage to say
I want to be brave for once in my life
To tell you how much you meant to me

I can't leave you in the past
When you haunt my present
I always end up missing you

Wishing that I had taken that risk
And told you what I felt inside
Given you that chance to know my heart

I think I will always regret it
Not knowing if you ever felt that way
If maybe things would be different
Maybe you would be mine

I miss you constantly
Your smile, laughter, and baby blue eyes
You were like the sun, that brightened up each day

To be honest, I wondered if what I felt
For you was love, but I still don't know
Can one-sided feelings be called love?

One day, if I am brave enough
I want to tell you how you changed me
How knowing you for those few years

Made me catch a glimpse of love
And made me wish I had held on to it
That I had said to you, "I like you"...

That I had told you how special you are
How amazing it felt being your friend
How excruciating it was wanting to be
More to you than a "close friend"

Would you have turned me down?
Or pulled me into your arms?
I guess I will never know...

Sometimes I want to call you
Ask how life is treating you
Tell you everything and nothing

I always wonder what happened to make us
Drift apart just when I wanted to open my heart
You're the first person that made me believe in love

Someday I want to tell you about all these lingering feelings
And ask you if for even one moment you felt the same way
Maybe I will be brave enough to take that leap of love
And be blessed enough to have you catch me

I miss "us", but most of all I miss how it felt
Being a part of your day...a part of your life
I want you to know, how special you are

How happy I felt  knowing you and being beside you
My heartbeat would race at the sight of your smile
I wanted to kiss you every time I looked into your eyes
Your the first person I ever wanted to let completely in

You made me believe that happiness was a possibility
You made me a true believer in the goodness of humanity
You made me ache and want that fairytale "happily ever after"

I wish I knew what made you let go of me
Was it something I did, is this all my fault?
Was I too late in handing over my heart?

I want to ask you why you left me behind
Why you drifted away from me
Most of all I want to ask you
Did I mean to you what you meant to me?

I don't know why it hurts so much
Even though time is passing us by
I still end up longing for you

That is how much you meant to me
You made me see people in a new light
You warmed the coldness of my heart

I just wish you knew
That I miss you
That I like you

I guess if we are meant to be
Time will bring us together
If I get a second chance
I won't be fearful this time

I will tell you everything I felt then and now
Even if you don't feel the same now or then
I will have finally let you in and give you the chance to do the same
You have always been the sun that brightened up my days

No matter what happens in the future
I will always be thankful to you
I will always remember you
I will always cherish the time I knew you

With all my heart...

~Lola O.~